I don't mean to sound depressed by this post or anything...but I seriously am having a hard time seeing what the point of life is, or better yet, what are we supposed to do? No matter what happens, I keep feeling like I am working my ass off and I am not getting anywhere. So no I am just tired and don't see the point so much. I know that in life, our goal is to make ourselves and those around us happy; I don't know how. I find something that makes me happy and I hold on, but eventually I get board with it and just feel tired. Why is this?

Also, there are a lot of good things happening to the people I care about and I want to feel happy for them, but I am not. I feel totally jealous, and I don't want to talk to them anymore. This bugs me. My friend is having twins, other friends are graduating and getting married, or buying new cars or moving into their own appartments or getting me pets, and I just feel...sad. I am totally trying to be happy for them, but in reality I just want to have a drink and go to sleep so I don't have to think anymore.

Sorry about me ramblings, I just needed to get this off my chest. Don't feel like you can't tell me good news, I will be happy for you. I love you all.

->boom

OMGD What is Going On??

I am so lost right now. With all my tests and work and friends and what not... I can't remember what is going on each day. Today I just work 2-10:30pm and tomorrow I think that I work, but don't know when. I can't wait until finals week is over...

Hope that everyone elses finals are going good and that they kick their ass. Have fun this summer!!

TTFN
-> Boomski

My News...

OK...I tried posting something the other day and it didn't work, so now I can.

First off...I was pissed this morning, because UNO was still in school. It got let out at 1pm, better late than never, I didn't have my night class, but damn, I still had to be in class by 8am for an exam. Luckily for me, I get to veg. out all night.

Second, and more exciting, I got my first tattoo. My parents don't know, so shhhhh!!! But I love it, you can see it on my facebook thingy. I need to go back and either get it finished or colored, so if you have any input with color, let me know.

Third, St. Patty's Day sucked. I got some kind of sick pucky thingy, and pucked all morning, had to go to Emericare and get rehydrated and drugged up, so I did feel drunk and not remember much, but it wasn't in a good way. At least I wasn't out with the drunks. A'well. Hope you all had a wonderful break and snow day.

TTFN
-> Boomski

Right Here Waiting

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for youI

took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' CrAzY

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' cRaZy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

Richard Marx

No More Stess

Ok, so the stress is over. My ride-along kinda sicked. The first call was to a house fire, and the 3 victims were just fine, no problems breathing. All I could do there was try to keep them calm. The second call was a 400lb women having an asthma attack, so the firemen took care of her. And those were the only two calls I went on all night, and I was there for 6 hrs.

Next, finally Spring Break is here, for UNL/UNO. Now I get to know what it is like to sleep in. I had 3 tests last week and they all kicked my ass, fortunatly, I passed them all. I hope that everyone has a great Spring Break and I will talk to you later.

-> Boomski

Hands To Heaven

Hands To Heaven

As I watch you move, across the moonlit room
There's so much tenderness in your loving
Tomorrow I must leave, the dawn knows no reprieve

God give me strength when I am leaving...

So raise your hands to heaven and pray
That we'll be back together someday
Tonight, I need your sweet caress
Hold me in the darkness
Tonight, you calm my restlessness
You relieve my sadness

As we move to embrace, tears run down your face
I whisper words of love, so softly
I can't believe this pain, it's driving me insane
Without your touch, life will be lonely

So raise your hands to heaven and pray
That we'll be back together someday

Tonight, I need your sweet caress
Hold me in the darkness
Tonight, you calm my restlessness
You relieve my sadness
Morning has come, another day

I must pack my bags and say goodbye...

So, what's happening?? Not much here. Just really freakin' stressed this week. I have an exam on Friday and my ride-along on Saturday. And I am still ready to shit a brick.

Also, one of my friends is driving me nuts and I want to strangle her.

So overall I am really wigging out. Maybe I'll have a drink or two tonight to help me relax. Love you all.

-> Boomski

ME...again

Wow... Sorry if this blog is a bit crazy (like I am not) but I will admit to being slightly intoxicated.

I am so scared about next Saturday. I have my first ride along with the Omaha Fired Department. Yeah the Saturday night before spring break, at the station that is down town. When I saw when and where I was going, I about shit myself. Well, at least it will be good practice. I past my test, which was good, because if you don't pass the test, you don't pass the class. Tomorrow I have to do a bunch of running around, trying to get the rest of my uniform, and figure out where I am going.

I was going to ask...If you read this...Steph, how was it with your first time with a patient?? Sorry I am asking you all of these questions, but you are one of the only people I know in the medical field. Anywho...I have to go to bed, before I pass out at the computer. Hope you all have a great week and a wonderful Spring Break.

-> Boomski

OMGD!!! So tonight in my EMT-Basic class we learned how to bag people and tube them...so cool. Of course we can't tube them, but at least we know how. We had a quiz tonight and I got a B. I was really pissed, because on my first one, I got an A+. But anywho...

I don't know if I have written this yet, but Jason got into a car wreck. If you know Jason, this is not a good thing. No insurance, licence, not registration, and false plates. Very, very bad. But he's doing better, trying to get a second job, and not driving anymore. I know he messed up really bad, but the fact that he was sober is good, and the fact that he is trying to make things right, makes me proud of him. I am actually more mad at the insurance companies. Yeah, I understand that it costs them more to insure high-risk drivers, but at the same time they won't be able to pay that much and they are still going to drive anyway. They need to be able to get to their jobs so they can try to be able to, one day, afford insurance, and be able to pay all their other bills. SHIT!!

Sorry about my ranting and raving. But other than that things are going good. Hope everyone else is having a good yr. TTFN

-> Boomski